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Friday, February 06, 2009
for duno wad reason i suddenly feel v guilty... seriously... esp when he gave me e scenario tt 1 day if we get tgt and blah blah... guilty cux i know it's nvr gonna happen ever... and it's me who doesn't want it.. i duno... hais... wad's happening to me??? i feel so bad... and he actually does care tell me not to stress myself out and take care of my health... he actually does care tt im getting a tad too skinny and he actually prefers me to pack on a few more pounds?? i cannot believe tt someone even fancies my rounder and fuller fig (n tt's alot more rounder)... even i cannot like it... someone actually appreciates for real... it's kinda mind-blowing??? i really duno wad's happening... i guess like wad my sis say... i really am not built for doing e playing e field stuff... cux 1) i will sink in once i commit and 2) my emotions as in my guilt and everything will kick into overdrive... sometimes if i was more like diana or vanitha i might b better off??? but then... of cux tis is e 1st time im posed with this prob also and i dun tink it will ever happen again in e future.... tis is like a one-off thingy??? i cannot believe it... can god pls help me with it?? show or tell/hint me abt e future??
now nxt sat i got 3 things to attend to and i duno which to choose...
1). korean food with family in which i super dun feel like gg so it's not hard to choose
2). gg out with him (booked me last but gave me a time n plan in which im kinda interested?)
3). gg out with someone else (tis person booked me e earliest but no time set yet due to certain reasons)
serious... still okay if i go ahead with option 2 and 3 since e time doesn't over lap... but hais... i jus feel so guilty... i duno for wad stupid reason anyways... can someone help me out here??
ltr is e exam and i haven even start yet!! =S help help help help!!!!!
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